Friday, September 30, 2016

Coming Back

So, um... Hi.

I've been gone for such a long time... I thought, you guys deserve an explanation about it all. So, let's see. The last you all heard, I think was when I got my new job. A bit of context to help you understand the metaphor I'm using here. I have a phobia that I generalize as a phobia of bathrooms, but is really a phobia of bodily waste, with an emphasis on shit, and a separate emphasis on my own bodily waste causing a mess. So when I say "the universe dumped a pile of shit" I'm talking something major, that affects me deeply, and changes my life somehow.

End of June- I get out of training and start my new job.
Early July- I start thinking I can get back on camera once the next red week is over.
Mid July- The universe dumps a pile of shit on me. Cue the shock.
August 2nd- The universe dumps a pile of shit on my partner when I've just barely gotten my head out. Cue deeper shock.
August 4th- the shock ends and I break from the strain.
August 31st- partner is fired due to having been gone from work for so long (I don't blame him considering what his pile of shit was).
September 16th- We can almost breathe again when the universe dumps a third pile of shit on both of us.

The first pile of shit, I haven't heard on the status of it in awhile. I need to get on finding out about it, but I've been a bit busy dealing with all the rest of the shit.

The second pile of shit is not the kind of thing that can get resolved.

The third pile of shit is not going to be finished being resolved for at least a month, possibly longer. (It required moving out of our apartment while they repair some damages, and we'll be moving back in once they're done with the repairs)

Here's the problem. I broke. Like, really, truly broke. This changed me. I'm basically... who I would've been just out of college if I hadn't had any friends in high school or college and hadn't had a fuckbuddy in college.

I will no longer be offering toys.
I will no longer be offering any kind of bdsm play, regardless of who is on top.
I will not even be doing spankings anymore.

I offer dancing, stretching, exercises, nudity, clothing, costumes, panty-play (no stuffing), stockings, hose, fingers-in-pussy, oil play, lotion play. Please note- for oil I will have to get it from another room. All nudity is now paid shows only. Not even flashes for tips. I will still change clothes for tips, and as always that will be done off-camera.

Moving out has left me exhausted. I need a couple days to recover. Hopefully, the universe has run out of piles of shit to drop on us. But I can't count on that. So no promises. Only this- I will try. I will try to get on for a few hours Sunday evenings. I will try to get on for an hour after work- but they started me on the flex-schedule, so when I can do that hour will vary.

Getting back on once I was used to the new job was always the plan, even before he lost his job. I just wasn't planning to have to change things this drastically.

Take care everyone. See you online.

Friday, July 15, 2016


Hey Guys!

Wow, customer service is exhausting x.x

I'm in the higher ups, so by the time a customer talks to me, they've been though at least two other people, and are starting to get tired and frustrated. I've been lucky though, only a couple people a week get pissed at me, and I get people apologizing for "acting badly" b/c they're pissed at the company when I haven't even noticed it. Lots of compliments and happy people at the end of the calls, which is nice.

I adore helping people. I dread every day because I *still* don't feel like I'm qualified, and I have no idea if I'm doing things right enough by the company to not get fired. x.x I'm just doing my best to help the customers, to hell with the metrics about time on call and stuff like that. I don't take forever on purpose, and I do try to do things as quickly as I can. Some days I get it better than others.

Despite all this, I'm finally starting to find my rhythm. There's no time for housework between calls, and my breaks are really short. Plus I'm working more hours (I was scheduled for 35 hours a week on camera, and you all know that I usually only worked about 30 of those if I include the short break after every private; now I'm working 40 hours a week, 2 paid 15-min breaks and 1 unpaid 30-min lunch per day), so my time off is very... stressful x.x

I'm pretty confident that I will not be getting back on camera. I'm hoping to do a video or two a month, but... well... you know my track record on stuff like that. I'll post on twitter any time I upload a new video.

I still check the eve_matteo hotmail account every day, so if you want to buy a video using mfc tokens, that is still an option. Just send me an email regarding which video you want, and make sure you pay the tokens listed, and I'll check on that and all.

Take care everyone!

Monday, May 16, 2016


So, let's try something different.

Fri and Sat will be my days off usually.

This week, I plan to work Fri afternoon.

This Thursday or sometime next week, there should be a memorial service for one of my partner's family members (it depends on when other family members are able to attend). If I don't appear for a day, that's where I am. I'll try to post on twitter if it does happen on a workday.

My break will be roughly two hours long. When it starts will depend on when my partner's break is, I need to be off  45 mins before his break so I can have dinner ready for his break. I will not know when his break is until 4 or 5pm day of, so... not much warning for you guys. Sorry. His earliest scheduled break so far has been 7pm. His latest so far has been 8pm. Thing is, sometimes he gets tied up and his break doesn't start for up to an hour into it. If that happens, I won't be back until his break is over. Hence the roughly 2 hours, but maybe as much as 3 hours if it takes an hour past scheduled for his break to start. (45 mins before scheduled, 1 hour late, 30 min break = 2.25 hours). On Thursdays, break will be roughly 6:30 - 8:30.

So, we're looking at 2pm - midnight, with a break somewhere in there for dinner.

To ensure that I get my break on time, I'll be doing a gold show just before break starts each day starting tomorrow. Exactly when the countdowns start and such will need to be planned and will depend on the day.

See you on Streamate!

Monday, May 9, 2016

Adventures in Visual C#

Dear Microsoft,

When I'm typing, if I finish the word that I wanted, I hit space bar without thinking. It's really a bitch that spacebar also happens to tell intellisense that instead of what I typed, insert the selected code. Same goes for typing "." . It would be nice if instead of intellisense deciding that my normal typing is me selecting options, there was a different key, one not used nearly as often during coding, that told intellisense I wanted to use that selection. That way when I'm looking at my notes instead of the code I'm typing, I'm not going to look back to check for errors and recognize exactly nothing of what I typed. I like intellisense reminding me which syntax is required for what language, because python, java, and C# all have different requirements and sometimes I forget which is which. But it's not worth it when I have to break the flow of my typing to NOT use intellisense. So I turn it off, and lose the use of one tool which makes Visual Studios so nice.

This message was inspired because I'm doing the Visual C# Basics course through Microsoft's virtual academy. During lesson 10, there's one line that says:

char[] messageArray = message.ToCharArray();

Every time I typed "message." in the second part of the line, it changed what I typed to messageArray. So when I looked back, I got

char[] messageArray = messageArrayToCharArray();

There was another part of his code where I would press space and end up with something I'd never seen before, because I'm not that far into the course. I turned off intellisense, so I can't really go through and find out what I typed and what I got. Throughout the lesson, fighting with intellisense about what I really meant to type cost me 10 minutes.

"." and " " are so ubiquitous throughout coding that they really shouldn't be keyboard shortcuts on their own. Maybe make it "ctrl + space", so that it's something relatively easy to type that won't be typed by accident.

Someone Actually Using Your Stuff

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Scheduling (crossing fingers!)

Hey guys!

So, many of you know that whenever I post a schedule, that pretty well guarantees I won't be able to follow it right away.

So now, I'm posting my schedule in the middle of red week, when I already know I can't follow it, so that hopefully, I'll be able to follow it when red week is over. (Yeah, we'll see how well that goes...)

I'm trying to have Thursday and Friday as my days off. Which means I'll work Sun, Mon, Tues, Wed, Sat.

I'm trying to work 2pm - 6pm, 9pm - Midnight (US Eastern).

Cross your fingers and hope this works! (Red week started last Tuesday, so we're looking at a Tues or Wed return from it.)

Monday, March 14, 2016

New Computer

W00T! It's awesome!

So, we got his CPU yesterday just before he had to work. He got off work around midnight, but spent his breaks getting stuff started, and looking at the manuals. After he got off work, I helped him with his computer a bit before taking apart my temporary desktop. I pulled the wires off and undid the screws for the Hard Drive and Video Card. Not him, me. :)

We put my Hard Drive (500GB) and Video Card (nVidia GTX 450) in his old case. Here's what's new and awesome:

- The front USB ports actually work (my old case, the front usb ports had a habit of stopping every 15ish minutes)
-It has water cooling for the CPU (quieter than my old computer, only fan you can hear now is the video card)
-It has a 6-core processor (so I can see your camera while streaming mine, and I don't have to exit dropbox or firefox to do so)
-It has 8 GB of RAM (honestly I don't use much over 2, but it's nice to have the extra so I don't have to upgrade so soon)

What stays the same, but is still awesome (aside from the already listed HD and GC)?

-Two monitors (1600x900 and 1280x1024)
-Washable Keyboard
-Fairly old gaming mouse (so I don't have to worry about ruining it with pussy juice, but still have the scrolling buttons by the wheel and the back/forward thumb buttons)

Gentlemen, I give you my "new" computer! What should I call it? Suggestions in the comments!

Edited to add the pics. Please note: left click on the picture and click "view image" if all you see is an icon. Also, I put them in the public camming google drive folder, so you can see them there.

Friday, March 11, 2016

The Computer Saga

Hey guys!

As I posted on twitter, my desktop died the other day. I figured it might be useful for you all to know exactly what is going on with everything.

First, some background. My partner and I have always been in agreement that he needs a better computer than I do. I'm not going to justify why this is so to you guys, just know that it is the truth. He needs more processing power, more ram, better graphics, and more hard drive space than I do. Any time my needs in this go up, his have gone up three times previously.

Back in 2010, he made his dream gaming computer. About six months later (early 2011), upgrades came out, and he made another one, and gave me his gaming computer. That is the desktop I've been using. So it dying now was not entirely unexpected. Looking at things, we think the power supply went bad and killed it. There might be an issue with the motherboard as well.

In June 2015, I turned 30. My dad wanted to do something special for such a "landmark" birthday, so he got me an ASUS ROG laptop. For awhile, I was letting someone else use the desktop, and was using the laptop for everything. When I got the desktop back, I set it up for gaming-only, keeping the laptop for camming. Then I realized that the desktop would work better for camming, since I take the laptop places where kids can see. So I refreshed Windows 10 on both, and did the setup. That was... a couple weeks ago I think?

My desktop's hard drives have switched out a few times. Most recently, it had an 500 GB and an 80 GB hard drive. I had Windows installed on the bigger hard drive, and Linux installed on the smaller one. When I initially installed Windows, I installed it as Windows 8 and upgraded to Windows 10. When I installed Windows 8, it gave me the option to put the boot partition on the 80 GB drive. Here's where I'm unsure. I think I told it no, but it's possible I told it to do so since I knew I was doing the dual boot thing. I could've sworn I made it so that windows wouldn't need both hard drives though.

If you've been following, we had two gaming desktops from 2010/2011, one gaming laptop from last summer. There are also multiple standard desktops. So when my desktop died, we decided to move the video card and the Windows hard drive into one of the other unused desktops. However, I needed both hard drives. I didn't want to need both hard drives. We have a fourth computer that's set up as a linux box with profiles for each of us to play with. I got tired of windows rebooting on me while I was in the kitchen on breaks and me coming back to Linux loading up because that's what it does if I'm not here to press the button quickly enough when it gets to the screen where I choose which operating system to use.

Yesterday, we went to a computer store and bought most of what my partner needs to build himself a new gaming computer (he's porting his current hard drive and current video cards over, and they were out of the CPU he wanted, so we had to get that online). He's keeping his current video cards (yes, two of them, for his 4 monitor setup), and hard drive(s? unsure). But, that leaves his old computer which is not quite as old as my old computer, and has better capabilities than anything except my laptop. So, when his CPU gets here in about a week, he's going to put together his new computer, and then when we have a day off together, we put my video card and hard drive in his old computer which then becomes my new computer. ^_^

In the meantime, my CPU and RAM capabilities are kinda gimped. What does this mean for you? It means that any time I can't really pull up youtube videos while camming. I can't go to any links. I can't look up obscure facts. It also means that if you do cam2cam with me, my camera might get a little choppy just from having your camera on my screen. It means the first couple seconds of a show the camera is likely to be a little choppy. It means that my video quality might suffer a little. I'm sorry about this. It is very temporary.

So, I'm back on today. I'm still working out what my days off will be from now on x.x I'm thinking half a day Saturday, taking Thursday off, and then a random half day that will change weekly depending on when I need it.

Monday, February 29, 2016

Topic and Name Explanation

Hey Guys!

There is some confusion regarding a couple things that are kinda linked, so I thought I could clear them up at the same time.

My default topic is to thank people for making sure that I'm willing to do what they want to see before they pay. I put "today" in there today, but I plan on leaving that there. It's not specific to today, it's specific to every day. The reason for this is the same as why I chose the name Luna.

See, I'm not very consistent. The one thing you can be pretty damn sure of is that there will be days that I just don't feel like doing whatever you're wanting to see. With the exception of just stripping naked and spreading my pussy, or basic pussy play, anything else might be something I'll feel uncomfortable with, or not in the mood for, and so wouldn't be able to give you a good show regarding it. I love tying myself up - most days, but not all the time. If my skin is being sensitive, I might not want to do this. I love spanking myself - most days, but not all the time. If I've been very jumpy lately, physical pain is not a good idea.

The reason for my topic is that some people, after we've had one exclusive where we did it and it was awesome, will take me exclusive without checking that I can do it that day. And about a third of the time, this results in either a very stilted show, or me just flat out refusing to do it because I'm not in a good headspace for it. This is especially true for the things I do only in exclusive. The reason I'll only do them in exclusive is because it's rare for me to feel like I gave an entirely awesome performance doing that.

So please, keep in mind, that if you take me private without asking about what you want to see because "you did it last time and it was great!", well, I might not give you as good a show this time, or I might have to say "I'm sorry, I'm just not feeling that today."

That response, by the way, might mean that doing it is risking my sanity, or my physical health, or it might just mean that the mood I'm in doesn't jibe with it so I'm pretty sure it'll fall flat, and not be a good show. Those are the only three possible reasons for that answer, but none of them are any of your business, so if I give you the "no" answer, asking why will give you either no additional information or way too much additional information (depending on the topic and my mood). Here's a guide.

Things I will not do under any circumstance:

- anal
- skype shows
- taboo roleplay
- anything involving another living being on camera with me
- anything that will result in blood, bruises, or worse
- gagging on a dildo (accidentally, it will happen sometimes, but I won't do it on purpose)
- taking my glasses off
 - bodily functions
- call you Master

Things that are Touchy (50/50 chance I'm not up for it):

- hearing your voice
- being dominant in any way, shape, or form
      (I do spanking orders, anal orders, sph, sissy humiliation, wearing a strapon)
- using your name
- dirty talk
- trying to fit 5 fingers in (usually I can just do 3)

Things I'm usually up for (maybe a couple days a month I'm not okay with these, but I usually don't get these requested when I'm not up for them anyway)

- being submissive (calling you sir)
- spanking myself
- tying myself up
- clothing/lingerie changes
- exercising, dancing
- "deep throat" (not so deep I gag, but deeper than standard sucking)
- using toys (sometimes I want to give my pussy a break)
- closeups and spreads

Things I'm "always" up for (once in a blue moon I might not be at my best, but I don't foresee me ever turning these down)

- c2c
- stockings or socks (hose would be under clothing changes above)
- fingering
- poses
- play around the clothes
- foot shows
- sucking dildo

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Updates, Mostly Content Info

Hey Guys!

I've been working on getting my content sorted. I found valid copies of almost all my vids, and almost all my pics. There's one cloak picture which is messed up, I'm going to see if I can uncorrupt it. I also have some places I can check to see if there's a way to get that one pic.

You may have noticed the disappearance of the vid list on here. Well, I'm working on getting that in order too. I moved it to "Excel" (except, Libre Office's version, so it's saved as ODS), and I'm working on getting tags, prices, and descriptions added. I started with the newest and I'm working my way down that list.

You can find the video list, plus some preview vids in my google drive public folder. I'll add the link to the content page once I'm done updating the video list.

My partner has been working on reading all the erotica I've written and noting down how long each one is, along with what keywords work for each story. Any story already listed is available, but I can't post them publicly as there's a lot of... risky stuff. For now, email me with what you're looking for and I'll let you know if I have something. Make sure the subject says "For LadyLuna, Erotica Request". If I haven't written it yet, I'll want to see if I can write it for you. ^_^ Remember- there are absolutely no boundaries for my erotica, as it's all fantasy anyway.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

New Year New Situation

So much change all around me this New Year.

So, let's see. The roommate who has no car moved out yesterday. That leaves just myself and my partner is this giant apartment. x.x On the plus side, we definitely don't need a storage unit anymore. And, I don't have to drive her to and from work, or risk my car getting crashed by her learning how to drive. Downside, one less person for hugs and company, and one less person to help with housework.

What all this means is that while I can have a regular schedule, it might take me awhile to figure out the best one. After all, this is a really big apartment to clean. I should have an unposted tentative schedule that I can start following in a couple weeks. Also, my camroom has moved, but it might move again, or move back. We're figuring things out.

The next few months are a complete mystery right now. All I know for sure is that I have to get the moving shit around and cleaning up from moving done before the weekend is over. x.x

See you guys on camera!