Where has Luna been

I feel like I owe you guys an explanation for my sporadic schedule. I want to have a stable schedule. I really do. But there are too many things in the way. So, here we go.

My partner is polyamorous. I might be as well, but I'm not sure. I knew he was poly going into the relationship, way back in 2007. To make this easier, I'll refer to him as Tek.

In 2012, he started talking to someone online. Female body, gender-fluid nature, prefers they/them pronouns (I will use she to avoid confusion, they/them/their will be used when refering to both people), heavily feminist (less so in more recent years), total Social Justice Warrior. Oh, and has a myriad of mental and physical health problems, which since I respect her feelings about it, I can't tell you which exact ones. Their relationship has always been rocky. In October 2015, he met her in person for the first time. She wasn't careful enough, and got pregnant. Despite her myriad issues, she has such a strong maternal instinct that she mentally can't abort a child.

In November 2015, she spent a month living with us. In December 2015, he moved in with her. On December 29th, 2015, she kicked him out, because he accidentally did something that physically hurt her, in a way that a toddler could physically hurt her due to previously mentioned physical health problems. He entered depression, I had to rescue him.

She put someone else on his daughter's birth certificate. The newborn daughter died in July 2016. I received a notice of being sued about three days before he learned of his daugther's death. He was not allowed to attend the funeral. He was not given the paperwork to allow him to take days off from work to grieve. He lost his job because of all this. He still took her back when she asked him to.

Part of her grieving process involved getting drunk and having sex with a different ex. Due to the grief and previously mentioned mental issues, she did not take proper precautions, and got pregnant. She had a son, he's about 15 months old right now. Her mother decided to exacerbate her mental issues in order to gain control over her son. She moved in with a friend, the foster system placed her son with her mother.

Since Tek's daughter died, I've had to take days off in order to keep him company when his depression gets too bad. This past spring, we moved to the city where she was living. When she was visiting us, sometimes it was fine, other times there were very bad fights (nothing physical). The foster system decided that she would be unable to reunify with her son if she didn't move out of the place where she was living. So about a month ago, she officially moved in with us. More fighting, because not only does she have those mental issues I mentioned earlier, Tek's mind doesn't work the way normal people's minds work, so getting along with him in personal life is a pretty steep learning curve. Plus, them fighting triggers some stuff from my past, so it takes me awhile to calm down. Thus, every time they fight, I definitely don't get on camera that day, and sometimes can't get on camera the next day either. I also can't get on camera when her son is visiting.

She has a service dog. We knew about this. We got vet stuff and paperwork sorted for him to move in with us last week, hoping that he could help calm her down when she has an episode. What Tek and I didn't know until after the dog moved in was that he's not able to be left alone because he'll make too much noise. This includes closing my door. So now, not only can I not work when they have a fight, I also can't work when she has any appointment, because Tek has to drive her and I'll be the only one who can keep him quiet. There's therapy for her mental issues once a week. Then there's appointments for her physical issues at random times.

I love camming. I want to be on camera. I want to show off, and play, and make you guys smile. Camming is my social life, not just something I do for money. Between the visits with the son, the fighting between him and her, and watching the dog when they're not here... I can't get on camera very often. When I can get on camera, I would greatly appreciate if nobody tries to talk to me about this. Please don't tell me I should leave him. It's impossible to explain what I get from this relationship, but rest assured, my life is still better here than it would be elsewhere.



I will try to be on camera as often as I can. Thank you for letting me rant.

Moving

Hey guys!

So, we're moving in the near future. And, I just started red week. Which means, for the next couple weeks, I'll definitely not be on camera. See you in my new place!

~Luna